MOVING ON TO A BETTER VERSION OF ME

At secondary school I was a very naïve person and that’s quite hard to admit.

As a teenager I thought I was happy in myself, foresaw my future and everything that I wanted to do. I saw people in their 20’s as picture-perfect. I saw them as people who had their lives all figured out. Those people seemed to reflect how I saw my early 20’s being, with a place of my own, a full-time career on lock that I wanted to pursue and have my life all figured out. I’m just about to turn 22 and I am far from what I want for my life, and that’s ok.

Right now life is moving at a million miles per minute and as scary as that is, it’s a good thing for me. Living life in the fast lane is fun and although the pace of life is giving me anxiety beyond belief, it’s helping me try and figure things out.

I finished University earlier this year, mid summer, and I’m still living my life exactly how I was then – but with more hours at work and less time writing essays. Although it sounds like heaven, its quite a hard time when you’re stuck in a rut with what to do.

After the first month or so of being student free I had more worry in me than I do now and the reason for that is time. Time can only tell my future and give me what I want.

I’m one of those people who won’t take a job, pursue a hobby or change my life if I’m not sure its going to benefit me. This mind-set has come alive over the past year or so whilst in my final year at Uni, and I kinda wish I was that person back in school – a little too late but I’m finally there.

If you want to better yourself to be the best version of you I think it all comes down to patience.

For most, school is a time of confusion but also hope. It’s a time that allows you to grow into the person you want to be but sometimes it doesn’t always pan out the way you thought it would. For example, I left University totally unaware of the ‘real world’. I’ve been in education since the age of 3 and I never understood what it was living day-to-day life without it. I became reliant upon education and found it to be an outlet where I lost myself and never had time to think what I wanted to do and who I wanted to be.

This time off over the summer has really put things into perspective for me and here’s how…

Making my own decisions. This one is very simple in the grand scheme of things but in my world it was actually a very hard thing to do. I am a very very indecisive person and throughout much of my teens I always let others decide for me. 1) It was just me wanting to put others happiness before mine and 2) I never felt mature enough to make the final decisions in case it went wrong, a.k.a. I was terrified of failure.

Failure to me was a no go zone. I never wanted it to happen to me and when it did, I would have a meltdown. Little did I know that with failure can come great success and this is something I came away from University knowing and being forever grateful for. You have to have some trial and error in your life to see results and see if things work out. So finally being able to make my own decisions and say yes without hesitating was a big step for me.

A teeny tiny thing can make the world of difference.

Learning how to be patient. Having time off sounds fun but for someone who likes to be doing things pretty much every hour that I’m awake, it can be quite the opposite. Even though my job isn’t full-time, I use up my free hours with stuff that needs to be done. I can’t sit around on my butt all day and watch Netflix, not even at the weekends and I sometimes wish I could.

Having more free time on my hands meant I had time for a lot more uneasy foot tapping and thinking, and at first I let it get me down.

However, since realising that time is my virtue I’ve been a lot calmer about the whole idea of waiting. Waiting for the right thing to come at the right time. Thankfully, this waiting and getting on with my passions has led me to be a much more patient and relaxed person, which is something I’ve always wanted to be. With patient comes time, which really can bring great things after all.

Filling my time with more ‘me time’. As I say, for 18 years of my life I’ve been in education year in, year out and as much as I loved learning and educating myself on the world, I never educated myself on me. I never sat back at thought thoroughly about how I could realistically make my life what I want it to be.

Throughout school I was that naïve person who thought my career and my goals would be given to me on a plate, just like how we were fed information at school, I thought it would be the same on the outside world once education was finito. Of course, it doesn’t work that way. You have to work for it. You have to have a plan, an idea and an end goal that is realistically achievable.

I now have time to think about me and where I want my life to go. I find myself planning out the next couple of years with more attention to detail, which I hope will pay off in the long run. I’m now an adult, I’m now mature enough to be less naïve and ignorant to the real world and become a better version of myself, the person I really want to be.

As the hun, Lana Del Rey sings, “Doing what you love is freedom. Loving what you do is happiness.”

 

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  • fashion for lunch

    LOVE this quote Megan! Also loving the Lana Del Rey lyric; big fan over here!!!!

    • Megan McCoig

      Glad you enjoyed it! And me to, isn’t she amazing!

  • Love this post, Megan! The world is your oyster right now – which is daunting and exciting at the same time! xx

    Beautylymin

    • Megan McCoig

      So exciting right now – I finally think the excitement is taking over the anxiety!!!

  • This post is absolutely everything! That Lana Del Ray lyric is amazing. You can do anything you want in life my darling, I totally believe in you!

    Love, Amie ❤
    The Curvaceous Vegan

    • Megan McCoig

      Ah thank you so much Amie, always so supportive xxx

  • Lady Writes

    This is so true Megan, and it’s a wonderful stage to reach when you take more control and do more of what makes you happy x

    • Megan McCoig

      Indeed it’s a great feeling! Xx

  • Loved this post Megan! The fear of failure hits me like a tonne of bricks more often now than when it did at school, I just need more time to learn about myself 💕 love the images as well 👀 xx

    • Megan McCoig

      Patience is your virtue babes I’m telling ya! 💗 and yes aren’t the images fab 😏 xx

  • Frances Hemmant

    Completely get how you felt Megan, when you’re younger, people in their 20s seem to really be getting their lives together, and so much older than the teenage phase! But when you get to that point, you realise exactly how they felt, because you’re feeling it 🙈 so important to remember that everyone does their own thing in their own time, there is no rush and no timeline to follow, you just do you! So glad you’re feeling calmer about it all, you’re doing amazingly girl and everything will fall into place as it’s meant to! You never know what is around the corner! Love you xxx

  • Those pants look super cute

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  • Issy Fox

    I used to feel like this but then suddenly everything fell into place and the proper adult stuff of making decisions and taking control happens and it actually feels great x

  • LOVED this post babe! So happy to see you putting in more time for yourself

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    Ellie xx

  • Ah I absolutely loved this post sweetie! Things tend to just fall into place, sounds easy but it really does xx

  • thesundaygirluk

    Lana speaks the truth doesn’t she. Like everyone below me has said, honestly by your late twenties, things will fall into place. You’ve got this and I know great things wait ahead for you 🙂 x

  • Having just turned 30 this year I can say that you never truly have things figured out, as that is the nature of life, but somehow it all starts to make sense. Dealing with the cards you have been dealt gets easier and acceptance and me time is what gets me through. Patience is something I still don’t have!

  • Erin Russell

    Wow I love the trousers and the post. I am hoping to go to uni next year and it can be so hard to feel like you are on the right path, it can be so so hard!

    Erin || MakeErinOver

  • BeautyAndTheBlouse

    Absolutely love this post. I’m now 25 & to be quite honest I still have no clue what I’m doing. When we used to look at people in their 20s & think ‘they’ve got it all together’ – I don’t think they did at all! You’ll figure everything out when the time is right! x

  • I can totally relate to this. I always thought I’d have everything figured out when I was 18. Now I’m 23 and everything still seems a million miles away.

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  • Such a great post.
    I’m 29 and turning 30 in May and I’m still not sure of the direction I want to take.
    I think in life a lot of it is a case of winging it.

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  • I can relate to this. I have also graduated and I wish I was like how I am now, back then.
    Also, you look gorgeous!

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