Hello December… you’re back, yay!

How are we all? Feeling festive I bet – I sure am.

Today is one of my most favourite festive days of this month; just because today is the day you can really begin all the festivities.

As from the title you may already know that I’m back with another monthly goals post, hoping to foretell my next few weeks, my plans and what I hope to achieve. This months ‘goals post’ is an extra exciting edition as its December, which means (yep, you may have already guessed) it’s my favourite month of the year. My birthday soon and then Christmas! Could I be anymore excited?

I can’t quite get my head around the fact that it’s the last month of 2017. This year has flashed before my eyes and is the quickest year yet I think. Anyone else? So let’s see what I have in store for the final and greatest month of the year.

First up is my favourite achievement of the month… putting up all the festive décor, which is soon to come and I’m counting down the days, maybe even the minutes at this rate. There’s nothing more exciting than dancing around the tree to Christmas songs deciding where to put each bauble is there? This year I’m probably going more extra than ever and may even put up a little tree in my room, because why not.

Second is turning 22. Yes the Christmas décor is more important, oops.

Jokes aside, I’m actually very excited to turn a new age, a new chapter in my book and see what the next year holds for me. I’ve shared with you all how I currently feeling about moving onto better things in my life, and I think that’s come with age and realising there is a new chapter in my life about to begin. Having a birthday in December also feels like an extra Christmas day, so guess who’s winning there.

Thirdly has to be my most exciting plan for this month – wandering the beautiful streets of Paris. For my birthday we’re finally heading back to Paris and this time we’re putting all the more tourist led todo list behind and letting ourselves wander aimlessly, seeing what we can find and just taking it all in. They hold Christmas markets around the Champs Elysees and my plan is to use this as my excuse to be a kid again and be the most festive I can be.

Paris is probably one of the prettiest places I’ve ever been, I just fell in love with it the first time so I can’t wait to go back and take it all in again and maybe pretend I’m Parisian for a few days.

Number four is one I hope to achieve, one I’ve had rattling in my cage for a few weeks now. December is the month I hope to get back on track with blogging.

It might sound stupid trying to get back into blogging on a schedule during one of the busiest months of the year but I work best under pressure. I don’t know why but I feel happier and more inspired during the busier times of my life and December is certainly one of them. So around all the festivities and birthday plans, I hope to get back on track and I wanted to put this in here as a little reminder to myself to get my butt back in gear.

Also, a lil blog revamp might be on the cards so watch this space.

Last but by no means least is to enjoy the last month of 2017 the best I can. Last year I let December whizz before my eyes and not take it in as well as I’d hoped. But this year I aim to chill out a bit more, take it all in and join in with as many festivities as I can. I’m already filling my diary up with Christmas markets, festive events and all the fun things so fingers crossed I’m going to spend my time relaxing and reflecting the next few weeks and enjoy December as much as humanely possible.

Oh this month is going to be the best, I just can’t wait. What are your plans for December?

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At secondary school I was a very naïve person and that’s quite hard to admit.

As a teenager I thought I was happy in myself, foresaw my future and everything that I wanted to do. I saw people in their 20’s as picture-perfect. I saw them as people who had their lives all figured out. Those people seemed to reflect how I saw my early 20’s being, with a place of my own, a full-time career on lock that I wanted to pursue and have my life all figured out. I’m just about to turn 22 and I am far from what I want for my life, and that’s ok.

Right now life is moving at a million miles per minute and as scary as that is, it’s a good thing for me. Living life in the fast lane is fun and although the pace of life is giving me anxiety beyond belief, it’s helping me try and figure things out.

I finished University earlier this year, mid summer, and I’m still living my life exactly how I was then – but with more hours at work and less time writing essays. Although it sounds like heaven, its quite a hard time when you’re stuck in a rut with what to do.

After the first month or so of being student free I had more worry in me than I do now and the reason for that is time. Time can only tell my future and give me what I want.

I’m one of those people who won’t take a job, pursue a hobby or change my life if I’m not sure its going to benefit me. This mind-set has come alive over the past year or so whilst in my final year at Uni, and I kinda wish I was that person back in school – a little too late but I’m finally there.

If you want to better yourself to be the best version of you I think it all comes down to patience.

For most, school is a time of confusion but also hope. It’s a time that allows you to grow into the person you want to be but sometimes it doesn’t always pan out the way you thought it would. For example, I left University totally unaware of the ‘real world’. I’ve been in education since the age of 3 and I never understood what it was living day-to-day life without it. I became reliant upon education and found it to be an outlet where I lost myself and never had time to think what I wanted to do and who I wanted to be.

This time off over the summer has really put things into perspective for me and here’s how…

Making my own decisions. This one is very simple in the grand scheme of things but in my world it was actually a very hard thing to do. I am a very very indecisive person and throughout much of my teens I always let others decide for me. 1) It was just me wanting to put others happiness before mine and 2) I never felt mature enough to make the final decisions in case it went wrong, a.k.a. I was terrified of failure.

Failure to me was a no go zone. I never wanted it to happen to me and when it did, I would have a meltdown. Little did I know that with failure can come great success and this is something I came away from University knowing and being forever grateful for. You have to have some trial and error in your life to see results and see if things work out. So finally being able to make my own decisions and say yes without hesitating was a big step for me.

A teeny tiny thing can make the world of difference.

Learning how to be patient. Having time off sounds fun but for someone who likes to be doing things pretty much every hour that I’m awake, it can be quite the opposite. Even though my job isn’t full-time, I use up my free hours with stuff that needs to be done. I can’t sit around on my butt all day and watch Netflix, not even at the weekends and I sometimes wish I could.

Having more free time on my hands meant I had time for a lot more uneasy foot tapping and thinking, and at first I let it get me down.

However, since realising that time is my virtue I’ve been a lot calmer about the whole idea of waiting. Waiting for the right thing to come at the right time. Thankfully, this waiting and getting on with my passions has led me to be a much more patient and relaxed person, which is something I’ve always wanted to be. With patient comes time, which really can bring great things after all.

Filling my time with more ‘me time’. As I say, for 18 years of my life I’ve been in education year in, year out and as much as I loved learning and educating myself on the world, I never educated myself on me. I never sat back at thought thoroughly about how I could realistically make my life what I want it to be.

Throughout school I was that naïve person who thought my career and my goals would be given to me on a plate, just like how we were fed information at school, I thought it would be the same on the outside world once education was finito. Of course, it doesn’t work that way. You have to work for it. You have to have a plan, an idea and an end goal that is realistically achievable.

I now have time to think about me and where I want my life to go. I find myself planning out the next couple of years with more attention to detail, which I hope will pay off in the long run. I’m now an adult, I’m now mature enough to be less naïve and ignorant to the real world and become a better version of myself, the person I really want to be.

As the hun, Lana Del Rey sings, “Doing what you love is freedom. Loving what you do is happiness.”

 

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